A Year Ago

This week last year is when I got pregnant. It seems amazing to me, as I sit looking at my 3 month old. I can't believe that we were lucky enough to find this amazing donor. And that we were fortunate enough to get pregnant so easily. Although my somewhat difficult pregnancy more than made up for the easy conception! Some days I can't believe she is really here. You'd think after 3 months of interrupted sleep that it would be real! After my horrid case of the baby blues, I was worried about not bonding with her. Now, I can't imagine not feeling this overwhelming sense of love and devotion. It's so awesome to be the center of her world. I love when Carla is holding her and Cadence turns her head and just stares at me. Although she recognizes and smiles at Carla, or other family members, she has this great big smile that she saves just for me. I love when people say she looks just like me. Although she doesn't have my mouth, and she has these beautiful blue eyes, while mine are green, I can definately see myself in her. It tickles me when someone asks how she is so tall, because Carla and I aren't tall at all. It feels good that people truly see her as mine and Carla's, and not mine and some nameless guy. I guess I'm rambling, but I wanted to celebrate this one year anniversary of when this beautiful little life first began.