I guess not

So the therapist talked to Ch. She said she didn't really want to live with us, but she just felt bad after reading my note and said what she thought her mom wanted to hear. How did she think that saying it and then taking it back would make us feel?? Well I can tell you..crushed all over again. To top it off, now Carla blames me. She says I should have left it alone. That I made it worse by getting her hopes up and then having her get hurt all over again. I was just trying to put our family back together. And from my perspective, it just proves that she does whatever she thinks someone wants. So her father wanted her there, and she went to live there. Then she tells us the same. Carla said I shouldn't have meddled. But I blame Carla too. Doesn't this prove that Ch doesn't have a clue? That she is easily swayed? How can you just let someone take your child, knowing that she is so wishy-washy? So Carla and I really aren't speaking. She said she knows I meant well, but that I need to drop it. Why isn't she fighting for her daughter? I can't stand it!! It's killing me. So now I stew again. I said I wasn't getting my hopes up, but I guess I was just lying to myself. I hate my life right now.